Stressed

I find myself constantly worrying if I am providing enough nutrition for the baby.  I feel like I'm never doing enough or I can't do enough. I feel like there is always one more vitamin I should be taking or "You haven't had any kelp today."  I don't know, guys.  Are there any mommies out there who did feel or are feeling this same thing?  I feel like this is my one job to do and I am failing miserably at it.  Who knows, I may be doing everything right.  I'm probably just letting myself get stressed out.....I need to just pray about it.

11 weeks

That is how far along I am. I find this hard to believe, because to me, my tummy isnt that big.  But I will have pics up soon so that we chronicle the procession of the bump. And then you will see what I mean.

We went to the midwife on Tueday and we didn't get a heartbeat.  But that is ok.  Usually with a fetal scope you won't get anything till 15 weeks.  We opted to not use a doppler, because it was a type of sonogram. So the next time we have a visit with the midwife we should get a heartbeat, so that will be fun!

Names

So, yes we have picked names.  If it is a girl it will be Selah Lynn Tillman-Young and if it is a boy Daniel Blue Tillman-Young.

Selah:  is in the bible.  It is a term used that means to "pause and reflect".  It is the part of the song where just music is playing and no lyrics.

Lynn:  is my maiden name.

Daniel:    a prophet from the bible and Noah's dad and grandfather's middle name.  All really cool guys!

Blue:  Noah's favorite color.  Actual "favorite" isn't an adequate enough word for his feelings toward this particular wavelength of light.

One Year Anniversary

Yesterday was our one year anniversary of our marriage.  It feels so good to know that I get to spend the rest of my life with my best friend and with a baby on the way, that just makes it extra special. We had such a good time yesterday.  We ate really great food.  Noah bought me a BEAUTIFUL ring with a blue topaz, of course, and I got him boots. 

And we got our Christmas ornaments!  Every year we both get a new Christmas ornament.  Noah got a Batman ornamnet and I got a Jack Skellington ornament. They are super cute!

I know in years to come we won't get to waste a whole day together just having fun and being goofy, but we can now and I love that we do! 

We are preggo!

Yes, we are pregnant! And I can't even explain how awesome and amazing this all is, good stuff.  We found out September 12, which just so happens to be Grandparent's Day. (I think that's hilarious!)  Everyone is really excited!

We have chosen to have a home birth with a midwife.  Hopefully, a water birth will happen, but that just depends upon what the baby wants when the time comes.  We aren't finding out what the sex is until the day of birth.  So we aren't having a sonogram as of now.  We aren't vaccinating the baby, because there are just way too many bad things....I will talk more about that later down the road.  I don't know exactly how far along I am, because we have not been to the midwife yet.  We are still interviewing them and such. 

And that is all I am writing today, because I have the amazing morning sickness and just looking at this computer makes me nauseous.  So peace!

A Prosperious Future

God is so great! We recently had a very joyous thing happen is our lives.  And I can't praise God enough for it.  Truly his plans are not our plans, but are better.  I thank God for this opportunity.  I can't say details, but I just wanted to give it up to God for being....God.  Its all summed up in my favorite verse....

"I say this, because I know what I am planning for you', says the Lord.  'I have good plans for you,not plans to hurt you.  I will give you hope and a good future"  Jeremiah 29:11

BFFs

So, there are two things you need to know to make what I am about to tell you special.  One, Noah and I are still in our lovey-dovey stage of our marriage. (I hope it stays that way.)  And we call each other BFF's or Best Friends Forever.  It's silly, but we love it.  Two, Noah talks in his sleep sometimes.  So much that I don't ever really pay attention anymore, because it usually doesn't make sense.

Well, last night Noah was knocked-out-asleep in bed and I was still laying in bed not able to sleep.  And he turned over in bed (still asleep) and said "Best Friends Forever".  I almost woke him up, because he made me so happy! It was just about the cutest thing in the world.  Love him!!